Triggered memoriez
Monday, September 29, 2008
11:26 PM
Cant help tinkg o all d tingz he did n said. Even d air freshener reminds me o him. He bought one n puts in d hall. She said if derz 1 in d kitchen then it'l b gd. Nxt ting we knew, der were 3. D 3rd was in d master bedrm.Earlier in the evening i went to ghufran for asar n as i looked down fr d 2nd storey, i rmbr how i used to try scanning the area for his scooter or for his voice or his face. now all of that is just a memory.
Then in d packed 27, i saw my wiz n d blu crumpler-look-alike bag i had. Wiz was his very last prezi for me. All bcoz i was tellg him d smile shutter fn was so cool while lookg thru d sony catalogue we got thru d mail. D blu bag he got fr SP. Itz my fav..alongside d red quiksilver bag he bought me while in kl.
Yes i'm pampered. He pampers me so. Mayb coz i'm d only gal. Tat makes it even harder for me not to cry every time ppl ask me abt him or say sumting to comfort me at havg lost him. But if itz in front o her, then i try to keep my eyez dry. Coz he pamperz her even more. He treatz her like a queen n i know she cldnt ask for someone better. She still criez. I know she does. Org bleh kata 'Redhakan pemergiaannya. Dia meninggal dlm bulan ramadhan. Insyaallah tmptnya terjamin disisi Allah.' It still doesnt make it any harder. It still doesnt make it less painful or less sad.
But i'm still grateful for those who offer wordz of comfort n concern. Thank u fr d bottom o my heart.
N you know what? I always rmbr how he always said "aku lain lah. aku kan hensem. hensem mcm nabi yusof (a.s.)" when he teases her. I will always agree coz he IS most hensem to me (right next to d kid). Even when they kafan him, he still looked hensem. N of coz i'd miss the way he calls me "my baby". "org mkn tak pedas, dia kepedasan. Betul nya my baby lah dekni" hehe...
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