go green
Saturday, February 7, 2009
7:05 PM
mom still buys clothes for me. =)
tis morning she went to geylang. i had tuition. when i came home, she was still out.
she came back around 2pm n handed me a plastic bag. there was a short green dress in it.
it seems that every year she gives me at least one piece of clothing. it's not even my bday.
for that, i am thankful for tis blessing bestowed upon me.
at the same time i cant help wondering if i'm not a constant worry for her. wat with me still being single and all. i shd go get myself a good guy. do they sell them anywhere? hahaha... juz kidding.
as much as i'd like to get married, i can't seem to find that special someone. i thought i found him a couple of times but... nvm. things juz didnt work out the way i dreamt it wld. =(
i dun wish for a fairy tale life no more. i'm too old for that. i juz want someone to hold. esp on nitez when thingz juz get so lonely. but then if i get married n my hubz doesn't want mom to stay with me, then i'd b worried.
i know how lonely it gets at nite. wif daddy gone, i know mom feels the same loneliness.. probably more. i don't want her to be lonely. i don't ever want to see her cry those heart-wrenching tears. i don't want to see that sadness in her eyes nor the ones that hide behind her smile.
i want mom to be happy. even if it means i have to forgo the pursuit of my own happiness. coz rite now, her happiness is what makes me happy.
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